March 31, 2009

Okay, due to some Blogger problem, editting one word resulted in the loss of an entire post.

sorry that i'm not like the others.
sorry that i'm not hardworking and motivated.
sorry that what you see seems like i'm playing all the time.
sorry for making you worry.
sorry that i'm just not good enough.
but then, so what?
i dont know how to set things right.
i'm not perfect, i know i'm uber slack at home.
so i try to make up at school.
sorry you couldn't see that.

ah this is pointless.
let's try to look productive.
so fake.

what am i really hanging on to??
learnt a new word at gp today,- uniformtarianism.
things happens slowly. things are happening so fast, but results dont seem to be coming as fast.
and now i'm trying to be short and concise, and it seems like i'm pissed.
h'mm.. aiyah, dunno la.
eff' it all.
seems like i'm wasting time on posting.
if not what? suck it all up?
sorry i'm not that accomodating enough.
not like i have any other outlets.
and i'm not making any sense to myself anyway.
rawr.

Bye March, Hello April.

Posted by :]amu at 9:35 PM

March 25, 2009

FEAR the competition.
Fuck Everything And Run the competition.
Hhaas. Kewl acronym.
Yep, one of the best races of my life, nationals.
Really different from adventure races like S&S, NVM.
Somehow at the start line, each 6 runners feel like 1 entity, with 1 goal in mind.
For the glory of their colleges.
Really touched by my ODACers, loves y'all lots.
Phone busy last night, and this morning got the shoebox of "powernotes".
First quarter of the race for myself: kickoff start, self-pace.
Second quarter of the race for the cross-country team: pacing by people to frag.
Third quarter for the seniors and teachers who had faith in me: mantain pace and not slow down.
Last quarter for my ODACers: All or nothing, just whack. Because cannot also must can.
Overall 29th, CJ 2nd. :D
Moving on, ATC and X-Physique ahead!
But short-term, gotta face the music for my uber JIALAT CTs results.
Oh shucks.. >_<

letter 'u' DONE. v^^

Posted by :]amu at 11:35 PM

March 24, 2009

"Pressure is nothing more than the shadow of great opportunity."
<24hours left.
Never have I dreamt that I would have an opportunity like this.
I've rested for the past few weeks, hoping that it would be better.
But screw that. Now or never.
"Feet fail me not cause maybe the only opportunity that I got"
Don't think, just run the best race of my life.
We can.. We must.. We will.

Chorus of 'Lose Yourself' by Eminem.
You better lose yourself in the music, the moment
You own it, you better never let it go
You only get one shot, do not miss your chance to blow
This opportunity comes once in a lifetime yo

One shot to make or break> 25/3.
CJC Cross Country for Nats!

Posted by :]amu at 9:20 PM

March 22, 2009

T-minus 90minutes to end of March hols.
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO~
Lols. Ah well, first time I had a holiday without any slacking.
XP was awesome.
I really have a good feeling about the jones.
Seems like we may be able to fulfill our aim after all, but we will not rest there.
Thank you Angsi, Datuk, Ophir and Lambak.
Angsi, for fulfilling the unfulfilled.
Datuk, for giving both batches time alone.
Ophir, for showing us what we can be.
Lambak, for how far we've come.
And Kota Tinggi for fun, laughter, peace and joy. :D
Day descent is a game, but night descent is a nightmare.
Speed descent ftw! Heex.
It will be the only XP we will have together, treasured memories.
Photos for November's never came out this fast.. :D
Kahang Eco-Camp. A screw-up rectified, and i'm back in Research.
In hindsight, it was kinda kewl.
New friends, new experiences. Turned out better than I expected.
Skyonfire, in shades of pink to red, while the lightning flashed in the background.
Wished I caugh a pic. Ah well.
All the rain prevented a real stargazing session, but we still caught a cloudless night for a while.
Good food, compared to XP's fare, but each has its good points.
And that adorable kitty that pranced all around.
Moving on, looking ahead.
Another academic term ahead..
And i'm so not prepared. Lol.
For one, I haven't packed for school tml!
And 60minutes left till the end.
Ending with another song. :D
I guess the songs reflect how I feel at the time of blogging, more or less. :D
The thing about being able to relate with the lyrics..

Pieces- Sum 41.
I tried to be perfect
But nothing was worth it
I don’t believe it makes me real
I’d thought it’d be easy
But no on believes me
I meant all the things that I said

If you believe it’s in my soul
I’d say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I’m better off on my own

This place is so empty
My thoughts are so tempting
I don’t know how it got so bad
Sometimes it’s so crazy that nothing could save me
But it’s the only thing that I have

If you believe it’s in my soul
I’d say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I’m better off on my own(On my own!)

I tried to be perfect
It just wasn’t worth it
Nothing could ever be so wrong
It’s hard to believe me
It never gets easyI guess I knew that all along
If you believe it’s in my soul
I’d say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I’m better off on my own
.....
but why is it that you are always able to draw me back.. everytime like the first time.

Posted by :]amu at 11:10 PM

March 15, 2009

Goodbye CTs.
Don't ask me how I fared, coz' I really dont wanna know. X)
And it seems so coincidental, that my mum chose to ask about my CTs today.
Apparently I'm spending waaaay too much time on ODAC.
But then again, it's the same for most CCAs right..
This is the period to settle in all the J1s, prepare them for the year ahead ain't it.
Ah well.. she does have a point anyhow.
But then again, it's only the CTs. XD

Went for acupuncture today.
Have not felt the effects yet, first time.
Maybe I might wanna learn about the arts of Chinese medicine next time.
Then I can help myself.
I think I'm like their youngest regular customer. Lols.
Hopefully it won't screw me up during XP.
And the Kahang trip after that.
Sunday night - Wednesday night: March XP.
Thursday morning - Sunday night: Kahang Eco-trip.
Monday morning: TERM 2.
Excellent.
Luckily there's like no holiday assignments to clear.
Not that I'll have the time to do them anyway. heex.

Here's another song.
I realise I always get songs like long after they are released.
Uber lag. Hahas.
-Snow Patrol: Chasing Cars-
We'll do it all
Everything
On our own

We don't need
Anything
Or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see

I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Okay. Off to pack my backpack.
3 HOURS LEFT OT START OF XP!!!

would you lie with me and just forget the world..

Posted by :]amu at 1:50 PM

March 12, 2009

Almost done with the CTs.
Think I'm gonna screw up.
But then again, that's like almost what's everyones' saying.
So yea, not gonna worry too much about it.
Throat aching, coughing.
Back strained, cant train.
Nats x-cty in like 2 weeks.
Still not trained enough.
March XP. Looking forward to it! :))
Kahang Eco-camp. No one I know to look forward to.
But the activities look kewl enough. Hahas.
Bye bye March hols.
GG CTs.
Goodnight world.

i found out that i let you slip away. so i shall not grouse about it. trying.

Posted by :]amu at 12:20 AM

March 8, 2009

Good luck to all for the CTs.
I'll need it. Like, loads of it.
But then, luck is proportional to the square of preparation.
So it basically means I'm scrw'd. XD
Ah well, suck it upp!
1 WEEK.
Then March holidays.
But then again, what March hols?
._.
nitezxzxzx~ [:

Posted by :]amu at 10:45 PM

March 4, 2009

Hahas!
X-Country over!
Didn't hit my postion aim, but quite happy with my timing.
Sometimes you just gotta admit defeat.
Their pacing is just beyond me.
But still, :)
Uber happy with myself, and not forgetting my TEAM!
Love ya peeps loads loads!
It really made me uber happy inside; the girls cheering at the last stretch, the guys all chionging in.
Sorry if i didn't show it. Because i scrw'd my back!
Ouch. Now walking with a limp, and cant bend over.
Kena blocked on the way out from Lornie Trail to the road.
Try sidestep, in the end injured..
But still, 4th! :))
I think it's a big acheivement to me, a testament to how much i've improved since I first joined CJ.
And it's all thanks to ODAC!
Hahas.. My mum thinks i'm nuts. So pia. Hahas.
And now, celebration over.
Tutorials. Because of...
COMMON TESTS!!! OMG!

New fave song. :DD
Boston- Augustana.

In the light of the sun, is there anyone? Oh it has begun...
Oh dear you look so lost, eyes are red and tears are shed,
This world you must've crossed... you said...

You don't know me, you don't even care, oh yeah,
She said
You don't know me, and you don't wear my chains... oh yeah,

Essential yet appealed, carry all your thoughts across
An open field,When flowers gaze at you... they're not the only ones who cry
When they see you
You said...

You don't know me, you don't even care, oh yeah,
She saidYou don't know me, and you don't wear my chains... oh yeah,

She said I think I'll go to Boston...
I think I'll start a new life,
I think I'll start it over, where no one knows my name,
I'll get out of California, I'm tired of the weather,
I think I'll get a lover and fly em out to Spain...
I think I'll go to Boston,
I think that I'm just tired
I think I need a new town, to leave this all behind...
I think I need a sunrise, I'm tired of the sunset,
I hear it's nice in the Summer, some snow would be nice... oh yeah,

Boston... where no one knows my name... yeah
Where no one knows my name...
Where no one knows my name...
Yeah Boston...
Where no one knows my name.

so tired, so jaded. that which will never be mine. leaving it all behind!

Posted by :]amu at 10:10 PM

March 2, 2009

Up at 4 in the morning!
Tutorials!
Wowowheewoh~
Surf&Sweat was fun. :))
We did well, but no prize presentation, due to the rain..
Hopefully well enough to reclaim the shield.
That would be a bumper bonus! :DD
My first singlet! Heex.
But shoulders and arms uber burnt. Ouch.
Okay, go do your tutorials! ><
Shoo shoo~

thinking of zzzinggg.......