February 28, 2008

here i am again, racked by muscle aches and whatnots.
the C^11 proved tougher than expected. doing GSTs everyday was like... ... never mind.
a group of them have already cleared 150. i'm slightly behind, at 140.
yet they still say "only???" abit demoralizing huh..
ytd's sudden training nearly killed me.
okay, that was an exaggaration. but i've never hurt that bad before.
i thought there would be no PT for that meeting, but because too many pple went for dragonboating, we did circuits while waiting for them.
didn't really help that i did 50 GSTs before training.
finished the first set, sore. managed to keep my 6rounds timing within level 0.
but the 2nd set onwards, both thighs cramped twice, and stitches.
the feeling was like ...
it didn't get that bad for me even for AQ training back at secondary.
so was still hurting a little today. managed to do 30 with judith. [thanks =)]
lvl run tml! and knowledge test tml! oh noes.. knowledge test.
my mountains are so scrw'd. maybe taxonomy as well. >.<
ah well, just give the test my best bah. =D

had the official welcoming ceremony today.
nothing much. a few hymns, sharing, and getting our collar pins.
oh yea. and now there's this JI ex-most-wanted person on the loose, supposedly around the campus area.
h'mm.. but if he took that much effort to escape, he cant probably to dumb enough to try and 'siege' a college right?
but my mum said, he already is damn dumb to even try to bomb sg's changi airport.
good point. h'mm.
ah, no point conjuring woes when they do not exist. yet.
dragon boating for my class 2 days ago was just, slack. compared to 1T12.
the class pple like all sign treaty, don't want go attack other boats.
pple come only zhao. then got pple slack somemore, not helping with the rowing.
thanks lor. already left behind at the start of the race. siens.
but our cheer was kewl though. siew mai~ ha gao!
or something like that. made me hungry.
what else. lessons are routinely boring, some re-cap lessons for the 2nd-intakers, others ploughing on with the syllabus.

and i'm still in my "long-term-fatigued" condition.
but one bright light at the end of the tunnel: the march holidays are like, just around the corner.
uber fast, but YAY. hope i recover fast from the op, then can catch up with my secondary school mates.
speaking of which, anyone wanna catch L this saturday?
after the visit to the army market, i should be free up till 5.30pm. then tuition.
i so wanna catch that movie. =D
cfm again, probably a last-minute arrangement again. if not i watch myself. ><

okays, so i end off here for now.
good luck to all j-one ODACers for the knowledge test tml, especially those going for march XP.
yea. goodnight in advance.
bye~

Posted by :]amu at 9:10 PM

February 25, 2008

ODAC C^11! 25th-29th Feb!
Classical
Challenging
Crazy
Ching
Chang
Climb
Climb
Climb
Continuous
Climbing
Competition.

Jones BANZAI! =DD
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1T19! =)
dragon-boating tml!! =))

ahahas. randomness. xDD

Posted by :]amu at 8:30 PM

February 24, 2008

hellos! =)
i'm supposed to turn in early, but gotta wait for my handphone and mp3 to finish charging before i turn in.
its bad for the batteries to overcharge. yea.
so in the meantime, here i am!

oreintation 2's over! abit 不舍得.
fun's gotta end sometime.
friday, east coast. not so bad.
IG06 was damn high for the first hour or so, but later on, almost everyone had the half-dead look.
the merciless sun did not help too, draining our energy.
being whacked by waterbombs was almost welcomed with open arms. XD
then cca bazaar for the rest of the day.
two choices for cca, and put both ODAC. hahas. 欠扁.
the ODAC meeting after that was a little emotional, if not enlightening.
felt kinda guilty abt having to miss march XP.
but even if i had postponed it, i may well end up missing june XP as well.
my parents don't want the op to clash with school, and i also gotta have some time to rest after the op.
might as well get it done and over with.
i've also come to learn something as well- It is impossible to please everyone.
what makes one happy may very well end up disappointing another.
well, i guess it's just best to do the best we can. just gotta take care not to lose myself.
saturday! rrreeeaaalllyy sucks to gotta wake up at 6 on a saturday morn'.
but after going through everything, it was kinda worth it. =D
morning games was fun. last day, just play like never play before.
but i still wasn't that dirty. perhaps just drenched. yea. hahas.
after that was all the prep work for finale night.
HONOO~ HONOO!
hahas.. that's my group for o2. maui for fire.
there's fuoco, arathor and solas for the other teams.
but saddening, we didn't get best house. but our intro rocked the hall, like totally.
topless, faces and torsos painted black,red and white. damnnn kewl.
but the face paint is rather itchy.. heh. no rashes, though.
and i got a blueblack on my right toe, coz' i stamped the pole on it during cheers. smart right. >_<
but surprisingly, it doesen't hurt. heh.
so i'm still going for morning run tml. missed it for one whole week. feeling a weeny bit guilty.
after everything was over, went for my grandma's birthday dinner.
got held up about my subject combi, but that's settled now.
but made the whole family wait. OMG. damn paiseh. ><
teochew-style restaurant. the food was not bad, but it was super crowded, uber stuffy.
and thus week 8 of 2008 concludes.

gna get our new classes tml. hoping to see familiar faces again.
half of 1T12 and IG06 for the rest, would be the best case scenario.
yep. keeping my fingers crossed. x (>.<) x [lookalike?]
oh lookey, my handphone and mp3's all charged up.
so it's time for me to enter lala land.
lalala~ =)

Posted by :]amu at 9:55 PM

February 21, 2008

Happy belated Birthday to Kejie!

yep. lucky your b'day was on JAE posting results day.
got early dismissal, can join you all for lunch.
everytime people jio me go out, but gotta reject due to school, damn siended. paiseh too.
so, that's good. =)
had this super-duper crumbersome meal, that sort of reminded me of malay chicken rice.
it was super-duper crumbersome, because it was half a chicken.
removing the meat with fork and knife was by no means an easy task. unless you use "manual", of course. hahas.
it was at this restaurant, changing appetites, at marina sq.
spent like close to 3 hours there, wonder if the management there was unhappy abt it. =P
ah well, looking forward to more gatherings in the future.
though bball this saturday is blowned for me, due to orientation. =(

so there. new group- IG06!
the first day was rather dull. icebreakers and stuff.
but today was much better.
for some reason, seems like it's easier to make friends in this IG.
which is a good thing. =D
lucky for me, i succeded in remaining relatively spotless for the games.
i feel bad, but not bad enough that to get myself dirty. oops.
but the sports games were fun, captainsball and handball.
dno if we won captainsball, but we dominated handball as far as i can remember. woohoo! =)
going down to east coast tml. another day of fun and games.
it would have been for much more convenient for me if we were to meet at east coast.
i could even jog there as morning exercise.
ah well. report at 7.10am. ohmygawdd...

i'm so damn tired.
physically, not mentally.
'lax, this ain't gonna be another long emo post again. hahas.
speaking of which, a big shoutout to all those who tagged.
thanks to all for those words of encouragement. really appreciate it.
i won't lament about that issue again. honest. =D thanks again.
back to the topic, i cant seem to get enough sleep, even with afternoon naps after school. zzz.
the cleansing 'coma' mentioned in eoin colfer's opal deception sounds so intriguing.
i don't even remember how feeling completely awake and refreshed feels like anymore.
even as i wake every morning, fatigue drags me down like chains. whoa.
perhaps it's because i'm asleep but not completely asleep.
in that sense, i rather not have any dreams.
i don't even remember them in the morning anyway. >_<
ah well, guess i gotta stop now.
pack for tml's activity, and there's still that knowledge test for odac next week i think.
woot. astronomy, plants, first aid, taxonomy, ...
i'm scrw'd. xD

emo-nemo. HAHA.

Posted by :]amu at 9:00 PM

February 16, 2008

another post, a rather dull one, i expect.
spent the past few hours reading. Eldest.
it's a whole day home for me.
the bbq rescheduled tml, which then i can't attend as there's some cny celebration thing at my condo, and i'm helping out.
my parents are going out for some dinner at my dad's boss place.
and my mum thought i will be out, and didn't want my sister to be home alone.
so she got her to go for the chingay parade with my aunty.
so, ironically, now i'm the one who will be home alone.
and technically, i slacked the whole day away.
no basketball. miss it so, havent touched a ball for 1 month already.
more so, i miss all my bros.
reading other people's blogs about their lives and stuff.
how they spent valentine's and stuff. going out with cliques.
it's not the lack of a date on valentine's, that does not really bother me.
its the laughter we all share poking fun at those who did receive gifts, with our close group of friends.
it's been fun at cj, i cannot and will not deny that.
but sometime or another, the fact that i've isolated myself from those that i've called my bros.
even now, i feel bad using the word 'brothers'.
we've drifted apart, no doubt. and the only other reminder of gmeth now is gone.
no resentment or anything, i swear. it's not your fault, it's your right.
2 or 3 months previously, while we were still doing the application for PAE.
my mum asked me what college i was aiming for.
my answer was that i will get into the best college my results allows.
my mum then said: good, you didn't say that you will go to the college that all your friends will be going to. because it's inescapable that eventually all will have to part.
i didn't consider that much then, but now i truly understand the effect of that statement.
i didn't, or couldn't get spend much time with weide as well.
in a new environment, it would have to be impractical to stick to familiarity as well.
but it sure would have helped to have something like a 'comfort zone' as well.
and it's ridiculously coincidental what mr lim spoke about after odac yesterday.
about how eventually everyone will have to leave, be it leaving cj next week, or 2 years down, or even life itself. [touch wood]
but there's another line from that conversation with my mum.
that with every parting, there will be something to fill that gap. because life doesent just come to a standstill.
what am i here for. a new environment?
perhaps.
but whatever it is, i resent, hate, repugn the fact that we are losing touch.
that was my self-denial talking, because it is a gawdamned fact.
and somehow, it's not like i want it to be.
like odac. march XP. clashes with my wisdom tooth extraction op.
it's not like i want to miss the XP. like you say, if you do not want to go for XPs, then what the hell are you doing in odac.
but then again, what the heck am i supposed to do.
"if i were you, i'll do my best to reschedule it." that's just what he said. and again, no hard feelings or anything.
what i meant to say was that it's always so much freaking easier said then actually doing it.
"it's what you cannot do, it's what you choose you don't want to do."
true, but what the hell are you supposed to do when circumstances themselves back you down like a cornered dog.
"天无绝人之路。"
but how the hell is it supposed to help, if the way is hidden or you are forced to make a decision immediately.
the pathetic part is how some people make decisions, and keep thinking back whether is it a sound choice, or a the best solution.
just like that, shackling yourself to the past.
yet without thinking back to discern what mistakes have we made, how do we learn and apply it to the future.
life itself is a whole 'effing vicious cycle.
i can't think of anything to bitch about anymore.
it's a blasted long enough scrw'd up post as it is now.
i think if i didn't channel all this negativity out, i would have bowed in to depressive behaviour.
as i am now, life's no great shakes anyway.
i desire some company as well.
szfanzqc'r cdzc zr hs bzm ad. ognmd'r rhkdms zr z fqzud.
oh screw this, i don't even know what i want anymore.
eventually everything will work out?
life's never a smooth sailing anyway.
i'm also losing track of what i'm typing too..

Posted by :]amu at 7:20 PM

it's the weeeeeeekends again!
somehow everyone's living through the week just for this 2 rest days.
so what've i been doing this past week.
well, from sunday. caught kungfu dunk.
effects and everything was good. and the play. kewl mon..
guess it really took after the slamdunk manga a little.
for one, the main character has to just score one point against the captain of the team to be able to join.
only diff was that sakuragi slamdunked over the captain, while shijie [jay] just shot a b-e-a-utiful 3point.
his 3 points are damnn accurate can.. quite a few nice assisted slamdunks too. 0_o
then over the week.. 2.4km time trial again.
thanks for eugene who paced me, 9min45.
and also, found out that running anywhere other than the track is inaccurate. heh.
maybe thats why i cant replicate that 9:28 in sec4..
but i will work hard to hit that timing again. =)
vertical training, went to some HDB block in toa payoh.
40 stories, just run up twice. like, whoa.
but i guess i prefer horizontal marathons, than vertical ones. eheheh.
and yesterday, grounded in school while the others went out for the "quite long" run.
had to do 30 rounds, as punishment for not following instructions.
was supposed to do 25rounds, 10km, during the CNY break, but i didn't.
ah well.. guess the true punishment is sacrifice bah.
took 53min53s, with joel.
never ran so much in my life.
ah well.. just hope will have another opportunity to do the long run out of school again... ><

academics-wise, more or less heck homework liaos. but still did what needs to be done. [i think.]
JAE posting results out next tuesday.
i think i know what to expect.. but i think you think who confirm?
next tuesday confirm lo.. hahas.

attended one of cjc's concerts last night, straight after odac.
rockafella.
more or less went "deaf" after an hour.
most of the songs i didn't recognize..
i think the only one i really knew was 'are you gonna be my girl' by jet.
rock music's really not my kind of music.
but came to know of another nice song which was performed by class x last night.
Always by Bon Jovi. uploaded it onto the imeem playlist.
everyone was shouting for an encore. not without good reason too.
their lead singer was damnn steady.
but whether i will join next year's performance again, gotta consider.
hahas. =D

okays, gotta stop now.. my tuition homework's one week overdue. =X
and odac knowledge test up in 2 weeks, assuming i'm still in cjc [most probably]
on the bright side, least it's not as boring as humanities. oops. xD
so there.
1 and a half months into 2008.
uber fastt....

Posted by :]amu at 3:05 PM

February 8, 2008

Happy belated Chinese New Year to all.
halfway through the CNY break- 初二
h'mm.. actually, to think of it, the celebrations started the day before, 除夕.
i've been eating loads for the past 3 days. feeling a little guilty. ><
ah well, i'll work it all off after the break bah. xD 先甜后苦.
lols.
okay, so first was cj's cny celebrations. nothing much, but the performances were good.
especially the singing acoustic duet, and the odac one.
the odac performance was original, and based on school experiences from the seniors.
the potluck/louhae was a joke. ><>
the sound system wasn't strong enough to reach the whole canteen, so coordination was more or less scrw'd.
but the platter was nice. no fish though. hahas.
secondly, we had nothing for our potluck, except some new year goodies.
but our impromptu class still managed to get food [don't ask]
thanks to those who took the initiative to contribute towards it, be it good or bad. XD
and with that, we are entering our final week as class 1T12.

this year's break was longer than before, but this year's visiting seems shorter.
i more or less finished the visits in the first day.
but the "haul" does not seem to have decreased. =DD
perhaps a few more over the next few days. hehe.
for the playing part, started on 除夕夜 with $8.
and finally lost it all today. total over 3 days.
not so bad luhh i guess, seeing how i play small only.
not my money anyways. =X my mum "sponsored" me.
maybe should keep aside a little this year, then next year play with own money.
more 'kick' also, gambling with your own money. hahas.

well, movie weekend ahead.
possibly catching the new local production tml..
that one drew some flak didnt it.. jack neo under fire for supposedly "portraying ahlongs in a good light".
and kungfudunk on sunday. booked.
that one i'm looking forward to it.
because i like both jay and bball. perfect match. =))
and then back to school. damn.
back to that mind-crushing routine of school.
well, least there's still odac.
woohoo~

Posted by :]amu at 10:55 PM

February 4, 2008

arghhh... what a sucky weekend.
fell sick.
then again, i rarely fall sick.. so it would have to come around eventually.
hahas. well.. first was friday morning, like 1,2plus. fever.
popped a panadol and went back to sleep.
felt like crap the whole day at school.
saturday feeling better, but mum wanted me to stay home and rest.
missed bball session. T_T and they went back gm some more luhh... T___T
then sunday had stomach cramps, which hurt like hell.
nicely put, "pearl harbour destroyed". exaggarated. :P
scrw'd up my appetite and my mood.
persisted till today as well, but not as bad.
heck it, gna run tml. =)
had chem CA today.. wont fail, i hope.
hoping to score well. the long questions were rather tough.
first test in a lecture hall. and as mr ong said, its friggin' easy to cheat luhh.
just glance, everyones' paper is super visible. and only like 2 teachers in one big LT.
also damn hard to get caught lo, unless you are damn 'smart' luh.
but i mantain that i kept my eyes to myself, honest! =)
ah well, hate being sick. shoo! blah-di bacteria. F5
okayys.. ending off here then.
cheerio~

someone said my blog uber boring. h'mm.. perhaps. >_<