January 30, 2009
of climbing, and running..Ah, sent off our challenge shield today.
But we WILL be seeing again soon.
Whatever competition we'll be facing, LET THEM COME.
We have, and will train uber hard for it, and we'll push all the way for it.
for cjODAC bXI!
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So, a 3-day week, but already got a whole pile of assignments there.
Like, wowowheewoh.
Arhh.. barely enough time to sleep.
Tomorrow afternoon, night = tutorials?
Other times, hardcore NVM training.
The final preparations. 8 DAYS LEFT.
Guess buddy's right, whole life centers around NVM now.
Really tired, shall turn in now.
Hang in there!
_____________________________
Posted by :]amu at 10:45 PM
January 25, 2009
乔克叔叔亲爱的别吓到闭上了眼睛
小丑把戏 不是大家都可以
夸张眼影 蓝色忧伤的泪滴
丢丢刀 喷喷火 踩高跷吹笛
跌倒失手烧到眉毛我故意
哈哈你笑的开心 我可是在玩命
扑克牌里 我的肖像才一两张
你看你看我的重要性
彩色的大卷发红鼻子最滑稽的步法这样的快乐你学会了吗 会了吗
用笨拙又惊险的杂耍继续对你装傻
所有的悲伤通通忘了吧 忘了吧
听我说
拿出你的钞票
笑平常买不到
先生小姐们赶快来 赶快来
再慢就看不到
座位没剩多少还能跟乔克叔叔拍 一张照
我只是卑微的小丑 翻几个跟斗 就等你拍一拍手
人群散了后 夜色多朦胧 月光也会跟着我
我不是孤独的小丑 你笑了之后
不需要记得我
哎 灯熄的时候 漫天的星空
最明亮的是寂寞
下着雨 我躲在面具里偷偷地在哭泣
为看了不能说的秘密
魔术师我恨你 抢走我的生意
别忘记蝙蝠侠靠我才票房冠军
听我说 拿出你的钞票
笑平常买不到
先生小姐们赶快来 赶快来
再慢就看不到 座位没剩多少
还能跟乔克叔叔拍 一张照
我只是卑微的小丑 翻几个跟斗
就等你拍一拍手
人群散了后 夜色多朦胧
月光也会跟着我
我不是孤独的小丑
你笑了之后 不需要记得我
灯熄的时候 满天的星空 最明亮的是寂寞
Posted by :]amu at 11:40 PM
ehehehaha~Posting from my grandma's place..
Just had reunion dinner, lucky didn't miss much.
The food was mostly cooked, not fried etc.
The only thing i missed was chilli!
Hahahs.. So now my relatives are play blackjack..
Don't feel like playing this year.
Yawn..
When go home then i shall embark on my own 'movie marathon'.
Ponyo, Dark Knight, some chinese show about Zhao Yun, and maybe transporter3.
Whee!
then tml start the visitings.
~angbow, bakwa, and tutorials.~ :DD
Note to self: remember to go easy on the New Year goodies.
HAHA.
Bleh, somehow not feeling that festive mood sia.. ><
Happy CNY to everyone~
((:
Posted by :]amu at 9:50 PM
New addition to my list of no-life things to do.-> Checking out people's blogs, for "lians" and "twits".
Should enter "twit" to that wordbook. whatever it means.
Lol. But then again, didn't really find any extremes.
But it still eludes me how people can stand typing with all the upper-case-lower-case plus the 'x's, 'z's, and additional whatnots.
I swear I'm never doing this again.
The joke in all of that kinda wore off after a while.
Like how a joke seems to feel a 100x funnier when said among friends and all?
But I guess I'm just jumping at any oppurtunity to laugh-out-loud..
Mood for the past few days ranged from smile to down.
Can't find stuff to laugh about.
>_<
2.30am. wth.
Shall end off with something that NEVER fails to lift my spirits:
FRISBEE! :D
if hearts were unbreakable,
if i was invisible,
wait, i already am. ._.
Posted by :]amu at 2:30 AM
January 23, 2009
what a beautiful world..CNY Celebrations done!
Great job ODACers!! :DD
Stomp-ed the house down! Woohoo~
I think the song, and the ppt went really well.
Thanks mr lim. (:
I WANT THE PICTURES!
ESPECIALLY THE "PORN" ONE!
HAHAS.
wake up when the clouds are far behind me,
Thus begins and 4-day break from school.
That's not to say that it'll be a restful day though..
Ah well, see how it goes..
Hopefully can recoup some sleep.
Second week over.
Jiayou mauu!!
an inexplicable sense of serenity just by being around you.. :D
/
-decided to adopt a i-can't-see-you approach. i feel like a childish petty kid, but eff' it.
Posted by :]amu at 9:40 PM
January 22, 2009
it's really appalling how far one can go in the route of self-delusion.inability to accept, or refusal to accept?
it's really getting abit irritating.
getting irritated over such trivial stuff, what's wrong with me.
Just read a friend's post.
Realized just how much more it was, that what it seems to be.
I guess it really never was about self at all.
it's a TEAM thing. :D
Made me see how self-centred I have been.
But no more.
Personal fatigue means nothing before team spirit, especially with what's at stake.
LET'S OWN THIS!
CNY celebration tml.
let's give them a performance they'll remember. (:
But first, GP essay.
Little under 2 hours left.
Damn.. ><
Posted by :]amu at 10:20 PM
January 20, 2009
and again, one of those instances where i really want someone to be there for me..drowning in assignments.
NVM.
CNY.
S&S (tentative)
J1s.
blahh. rantings..
rawr.
Posted by :]amu at 9:50 PM
January 18, 2009
Zzz.. I'm a damn stupid idiot..See only make myself dulan.
WHY bother.
Hate the way I'm thinking now, but still, such eff'ed up hypocrisy.
Oh, all the faked smiles and self-denials.
Pretending everything's al'rite, when it's all just starting to fall apart.
Like standing on a platform, while it's crumbling inwards towards you.
Who will be left on it with me, coz' I'm determined to suck it up through till the end.
Because of what it means to me.
Arr.. Eff' the first week of school.
Really eff effity eff eff eff.
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Okay, the above was actually typed like 2 days ago, i think.
Then got so tired and sianded that i just draft-ed it, and went to bed.
But I'll keep it there. coz' i still feel the same.
Blehs. But no negative feelings today. :))
So, Saturday!
NVM time trials.. All the time trials.. and it seems like i'm stagnant there.
Firstt stagnant nonetheless..
How to win NVM liddat..
Must find some way to get godlike quads, then can fly up and kick all their azzes.
And i wanna go for surf&sweat too!
Gotta train harder. Loads.
After that, makan, then go back school.
discuss abit, mug abit, then accompanied buddy home to yishun, then mrt down to orchard for tuition.
After tuition, mrt up back to yiochukang for Isaac's birthday.
Which reminds me,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIAJIAN!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ISAAC!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY EEWEI!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JINSHI!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY PHYLLIS! (tomorrow. :D)
Hahas. Quite kewl. So many people's birthdays in 3 days.
Back to Isaac's birthday.
Des and i got there in time to finish up the food. Hahas.
And a few people got thrown into the pool, including 2 that got dragged/pushed in.
Was damn tempted to change to my tights, and tackle everyone in. :DD evil.
But i'm nice. Haha.
A few people got intoxicated though..
Scary, never seen their kinds of reactions when intoxicated..
Absoulute raspberry's niceee~ ^^
Can't wait for end of the year.. then can get legally drunk. XD
Caught last train home. (heys! last train! keeewl. lols.)
And today, tuition, and walk walk around ps.
Then home..
Assignments!! :(
Econs Activity 2
That GP forum thingy + 2 new words
Chem hydroxy compounds tutorial
I think that's it.. but still, SIAN!
First week of school. End. >_<
......
:DD
Posted by :]amu at 2:50 PM
January 14, 2009
H'mm. Found this song in my playlist.Don't even remember when did I get this song..
Probably from someone in secondary school.
Hahas.
Beautiful Disaster
He drowns in his dreams
An exquisite extreme I know
He’s as damned as he seems
And more heaven than a heart could hold
And if I try to save him
My whole world could cave in
It just ain't right
It just ain't right
Oh and I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster
He's magic and myth
As strong as what I believe
A tragedy with
More damage than a soul should see
And do I try to change him?
So hard not to blame him
Hold on tight
Hold on tight
Oh 'cause I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he’s so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster
I'm longing for love and the logical
But he's only happy hysterical
I'm waiting for some kind of miracle
Waited so long
So long
He’s soft to the touch
But frayed at the end he breaks
He’s never enough
And still he's more than I can take
Oh 'cause I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster
He’s beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
Well, it's written by a female, so it's he.
But I'm not gay. :D
'Live' version too.. Nice.
Hahas.
Okay, that's it.
Night..
Posted by :]amu at 10:35 PM
January 13, 2009
Ah damn.The previous ranty post was the 369th post.
I was thinking of adding the lyrics for '369' for that post. Hahas.
Ah well, over.
2nd day of school!
And it's like, omg.
Stressing about 'A's and all in the first day. Zzz.
But I guess it was to be expected bahz, seeing how freaaking fast JC1 passed.
G.P. Probably hitting new levels of 'sienjp-ness'.
"It'll only keep getting better!" :S
Physics. Hardcore SPA.
Till like May?
Chemistry, new teacher. whisperer. =X
Too early to see how it'll turn out.
Mathematics, new teacher as well.
Supposedly some uber-experienced teacher; can even advice the other teachers one.
Wowhee.
Econs. Getting new teacher, but haven't had any tutorials or lectures yet.
Honestly, I'm not really looking forward to those. >.<
But other than that, school's cool.
New classroom is dammmn big.
Maybe can think of some use for the excess space behind.
I was thinking a hammock, so I can sleep in it during break.
But oh well.
My internal clock's still scrw'd.
So i get tired like uber early.
And even after I wake up, still sleepy. Rawr.
ODAC Exco out.
Kinda let out all I felt about it.
Is it worth the time?
Am I worthy enough for the role?
Still deliberating whether or not to take it up.
Not that I'll definitely get it even if I do.
But what the hell.
of perspectives and ideals..
Going to answer my bed's summons.
Heh.
Timetable sucks?
Suck it up, 'cause it'll be that way for the following year. :D
369
The goose drank wine
The monkey chewed tobacco on the streetcar-line.
The line broke, the monkey got choked.
They all went to heaven in a little rowboat.
VVV
Posted by :]amu at 11:05 PM
January 10, 2009
Okay, today was weird.I'm supposed to feel happy.
Because my mum got me a crumpler backpack.
I've been wanting a new backpack for a while, but it'll still be al'rite if i didn't.
But for some reason I can't find any happy feelings or whatever.
It was like that part of my brain that controlled feelings just shut down.
Weird.
Sorry if i didn't show it, but i really love the new bag. :) Thanks.
Maybe it's due to the tuition marathon thingy.
Found out this morning that there was supposed to be a make-up for a make-up that was supposed to be on wednesday.
3-5. Following which would be the usual 5.30-7.30.
Organic revision, chemical equilibrium revision, and ionic equilibria.
Well, or maybe it may be my 'holiday hangover' hitting prematurely.
I foresee that i'll suffer from holiday hangover when school starts. :D
Speaking of which, 1 day left.
Blehs.
Maybe being numbed isn't such a bad thing after all.
Then my mood won't be that dependent on my emotions.
It always feels like we are living our lives to live up to some expectations or another.
How many times can we actually say we are doing what we are because we want it, and not because someone expects it of us.
But even if you get that complete freedom from all expectations, then what next?
Ah, lapsing into one of those emo-ish moods again.
Shall stop now.
I think i'm just tired.
I think i'm just breaking to the surface, and finding that I don't know where I am.
And i think that i really should go sleep now.
Goodnight. ._.
Posted by :]amu at 11:30 PM
January 9, 2009
Thus concludes CJC Open House.I thought it was a really kewl event.
Maybe because it was the first openhouse that i attended.
The others were like going on about how scary the Drama club's Haunted Hallows thingy was.
But i never tried it. hahas.
Saw loads of people from different schools, and even one whole bunch from GM.
Sec3 only though.. Wow.
I didn't have opportunities like this to attend JC Open Houses when i was sec3.
But then again, sec3 adventure camp was damn fun. Wheeeee~
I sure as hell didn't have any idea where I wanted to go when i was sec3.
Heck, even up till sec4 after the 'o's, i still was unsure.
But i will NEVER regret entering CJ, because of ODAC. :D
It was easy to talk to those students, easier than i expected.
But i found that it was the girls that paid more attention than the guys.
And also, there was this girl, dno from orchid park or something.
Looked rather cute. LOL. =X
Ah well, looking forward to CCA Bazaar!
Seeing how well the open house turned out. Heh.
But that'll probably be a while from now.
Kinda pity last year's batch of sec4s, not having that extra time to "try out" JCs.
Good luck to y'all! :)
Let's see whether i can survive the first week of school first, without getting skinned by my teachers over the assignments. >_<
That's like 2 days away.
......
O.o
I'm on the road to who knows where
Look ahead, not behind I keep saying
There's no place to go where you're not there.
On your rope i hold tight, but it's freeing.
_stalemate, but i guess i can live with this. :))_\
6Jan~ rollerblading! :]
Posted by :]amu at 10:20 PM
January 8, 2009
LISTEN UP PPLE!CJC OPEN HOUSE TOMORROW, THE 9TH OF JANUARY!
1-6PM!
Hahas.
I personally didnt attend any open houses when I was choosing my jc.
And it also helped that i had the PAE trial period for cj.
Guess it'll be harder for those incoming JC1s..
But cj will be THE place to stop by! xD
Because it's definitely worth a look.
heh. okays, random.
ending off here. =X
Posted by :]amu at 8:25 PM
January 6, 2009
Seems like every time i pour out thoughts that'll make me sad, more will come to take their place.It's as if its a sin to want to just feel happy.
What to say, I don't know what you are thinking.
But I know it's because you probably don't know yourself as well.
What the hell, all the confusion and all?
I guess to me it can be rather clear, but just that I cant come to terms with it yet..
I don't know what to do now too. What do I want?
Wished I knew.. But what you did? I think it's like unnecessary.
Because I rather you tell me directly, then at least it gives me a chance to react.
Don't keep thinking about whether i will get hurt or what; it freaking wont kill me.
It never was, and never will be, a bed a roses, and I won't be that naive to pretend otherwise.
Whatever the outcome, I'll live.
I will never leave you, unless you don't want me around.
And also i think we know each other enough, that whatever happens will not create a barrier between us.
If it doesn't work out, then so be it. It's not the end of us.
It doesn't have to go all the way down to nothing.
......
Argh.
I'm such a hypocrite. ><
I just want to make the people i hold dear happy.
But that's the stupid thing, what makes one happy make another sad. :(
Figured that i'll stop trying to hide all my sad thoughts.
It's like denying a part of myself.
However much I don't like it, I can't be happy 24/7.
But i can try to make it last for as long as possible. :D
Okay, sad things aside.
rollerblading was fun!
though personally i would prefer cycling.
Easier, and faster too. hahas.
Another day gone, and my assignments are still there.
DAMN! lols. >_<
Ah.. It will be done. Eventually.
When i can't procrastinate anymore. LOL.
bad attitude, but wth. :D
Posted by :]amu at 9:50 PM
January 5, 2009
yay, 365. :Da almost-4 year blog finally has the same number of posts as the number of days in a year.
random. xD
i cut my hair today.
AND NOW I'VE NO MORE FRINGE!
RAWR.
lols.. kinda funny now.
my mum laughing at how much i'm bitching about my hair now.
coz' in the past, i wouldn't give two hoots about how i looked.
but i guess it's a good thing bah, so long as never become narcissistic can liao.
hahas.
looking good is just a measure of how much self-repect you have. :D
not that i look that good luh.
but i feel pretty darn good about myself most of the time. :P
oh, and tuition today was ... as usual.
i reached the centre like 40 minutes ahead of time, and napped on the staircase.
and i dozed again for like the last 15 minutes of lesson. =X
i'm going rollerblading with some of my 4-2ers tml!!
havent seen y'all in AGES!
sorry about my timetables and all. lols.
nevermind. we'll catch up loads tml. heex.
then maybe studying after that tml.
see how.
my assignments are not finished yet.. probably i'll be the one that will be finished.
chionging overdue assignments for the first few days of school doesn't really appeal to me much. XD
and i havent touched 9D for like a week already!
accomplishment. (:
Posted by :]amu at 11:05 PM
January 4, 2009
you always know how to make me smile, even when i'm supposed to be sad. :)hellos. currently stoning at my grandma's place.
unstable linksys..
cant play dota with anyone.
too bored to play with myself.
yep. and this is a 100% post just for the sake of posting.
lols. okays. bye! dinner.
your thoughts i cant decode. ><
Posted by :]amu at 6:45 PM
ah. ehehehaha..i'm such a twit.
"when you are in evol, you are blinded by it, till your head falls off"
ahahas..
how true..
ah well, it hurts. sure it does.
mope abit, and then pick yourself up and move on!
there will always be some good to be found from that situation.
heh.
now it's kinda funny how simple things can actually be, and how far we can actually go to "blind" ourselves from reality..
and reality itself can be harsh too.
but what the hell, that's life.
feeling so stupid. xD
ah well, i guess i should be glad that those involved dont actually hold it against me.
fortunate. :D
it's a good day again. hahas.
and you know what?
there was NO class!
travelled all the way to orchard. then after that realised that there wasn't supposed to be any classes.
LOL.
And, Happy Birthday eewei! :)
sorry if i stayed in the room much.
but hope you had a nice celebration. hahahs.
wished i could have tried abit of that chivas' whiskey though..
=X hahas.
okays, going to bed liao.
tuition bright and early at 9am.
damn~ T_T my sleeeeeeeeeeeepp...
thanks s. :DD
Posted by :]amu at 12:50 AM
January 3, 2009
hehe. dno what i did.but now when i go to the Blogger homepage, it auto-redirects me to my dashboard.
i'm sooo smart. xD
met up with my ex-tuition teacher for lunch (thanks for e swensens! :))
chatted. seriously.. it's been too fast. 5 years since she started teaching me.
she's the one that saved my maths in secondary school. :D
happy new year to you!
okay, so dota-ed one game just now..
maybe stone or look through some chem..
tuition later.
teacher's been out of singapore, whole december no tuition.
now start again. but nvm!
got odacers there, and des joining.
love to see the teacher's expression when me and des turn up together.
wahahaha.. :D
9 DAYS & BACK TO CJC!
oh my..
of fairytale endings, and happily-ever-afters..
Posted by :]amu at 3:25 PM
January 2, 2009
Okay, i've got this to say.I dislike the night.
Coz' its the time where i'm alone.
And when i'm alone, my thoughts tend to wander.
Start thinking about things that i don't wanna think about.
Listless, dunno what to do..
I dislike this, i detest being emo.
And for the record, there's a difference in emo-ing, and stoning.
Blehs. Maybe i should really start on my homework..
If only i could skip the whole thinking part, and fast forward to e stone mode.
Another thing to be sad about:
I can't load new songs into my mp3, coz' e CD that installs the program to add/delete songs to/from my mp3 does not work with my laptop.
Some file that's supposedly missing. :(
Ah, not exactly a good start to the year after all..
Optimist: Tomorrow will be better! :)
Pessimist: How much worse can it get... =/
What? My personality's quite equally split down anyway..
------
(There's Gotta Be) More to Life - Stacie Orrico
There's gotta be more to life...
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
Cause the more that I'm...
Tripping out thinking there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure... there's gotta be more
Than wanting more
Posted by :]amu at 11:45 PM
360th post! kewl. :DIp Man was freeeeaaaaaakkkkiiinnggg awesome!
the storyline quite similar to Fearless, just that the main guy wasn't as addicted to fighting.
but man, can he fight!
damn imba, once his opponent is on his knees, sure die.
punches either your chest or head machine-gun style, with strength behind every punch.
the part where he owned that saber-wielding guy with a featherduster was just funny.
caned him hard. lols. bad boy!
lol. shiok sia today.
my sister starts school already, and i still have another week or so. :D
for some reason, we ended up brunching at sji.
after that, bus-ed down to cine for e movie.
ah damn.. homework still like halfway through..
though i think i would heck my econs..
maybe next week. =P
speaking of which.. next week!
nite cycling + cj open house!
didn't know about open houses, when i was awaiting my 'o' level results..
hahas.. oops..
hopefully we get some zhai j1s coming.
fulfil what we could not. hahas.
should i continue with my homework.....? ><
Posted by :]amu at 8:20 PM
January 1, 2009
WOOT~ new blogskin! :DH'mm. so, checked it up..
Eden refers to a place where you are truly happy.
Well, my thoughts may sometimes not be the happiest place to be..
But within it is definitely one of the best places, within its serenity.
Okay, i have no idea what i just said. so, nvm. XD
Was trying to explain the title, i guess..
I also took the chance to clean up the links..
some of the links were either no longer in use, or 'abandoned'..
so i ditched those.
anyone whose links are not there, tag me and i'll link you asap. :))
okay, that's it for now..
my parents said that they have nothing planned out for later..
Nothing on New Year's Day.. ><
But i've got new songs! :))
fall out boy!
lostprophets!
newfoundglory!
ck, send me more pleasE! :DD
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Last Train- Lostprophets
One! Two! Three!
To every broken heart in here
Love was once a part, but now it's disappeared
She told me that it's all a part of the choices that your making
Even when you think you're right
You have to give to take
But there's still tomorrow
Forget the sorrow
And I can be on the last train home
Watch it pass the day
As it fades away
No more time to care
No more time, today
But we sing
If we're going nowhere
Yeah we sing
If it's not enough
And we sing
Sing without a reason
To ever fall in love
I wonder if you're listening
Picking up on the signals
Sent back from within
Sometimes it feels like I don't really know whats going on
Time and time again it seems like everything is wrong in here
But there's still tomorrow
Forget the sorrow
And I can be on the last train home
Watch it pass the day
As it fades away
No more time to care
No more time, today
But we sing
If we're going nowhere
Yeah we sing
If it's not enough
And we sing
Sing without a reason
To ever fall in love
Well we sing if we're going nowhere
Yeah we sing if it's not enough A
nd we sing
Sing without a reason to ever fall in love
But we sing
If we're going no where
Yeah we sing
If it's not enough
And we sing
Sing with out a reason to never fall in love
To never fall in love again
Posted by :]amu at 4:05 PM
Happy 2009 people!How did all of y'all spend your last day of 2008?
I spent it with my much-loved odacers. :D
kewl sleepover yo. :)
drank more than i ever had.
until got that light-headed feeling..
But luckily not drunk yet, coz' didn't have hangover. LOL.
Still, it was fun. Hahas.. all the games and all.
Much much much better than last year's 31st december. heex.
Hahas.. ah well, guess most people are of the opinion that my cj social life more or less revolves around odac.
and i must say that it's rather true.. ><
But it's that time of the year to set goals and resolutions for the coming year.
Though they are pretty much in shambles by june, or earlier. X)
But still, :P
okay, so here goes.
1. to be a good boy and study hard for jc2. because i'll be scrw'd if i don't.
2. be good seniors to our incoming batch XII, as much as for our own sakes as for theirs. redemption??
3. to not procrastinate as much, not nua as much, etc.
... ...
aiyah, dno what to say. heex.
heck it. make it up as the year goes.
Like study planners; never works for me.
Heh.
So, how should i spend the first day of 2009...? :))
