September 30, 2006
well. pretty uneventful day.posting as of saturday, not sunday.
its currently 12.15am lols.
maths tution last minute changed to the morning todae.
so much for a sleep-in.
after the tution had lunch with my tutor with my sis.
after lunch 1hr+ just whooshed by.
and i'm gone for my chem. did some temasek paper. bleahs.
then just now had some mid-autumn dinner at a temple.
came back ard 10+.
my thumb's feeling loads better.
hope it heals by tuesday. =P
i simply love my keychain.
unfotunately its not as it looks now.
it somehow got seperated
thus i improvised.
zangetsu's currently hanging on my bag.
the hollow mask on my pencilbox.
heh, self-professed bleach-fanatic.
oh wells.
thanks for e concern mr tay,
you are right, we are all stressed.
i dun believe no one is stressed.
so we gotta take it in stride.
from now, 2 days to the EoYs.
06's coming to an end.
all the way f3-2ers!
its not even worth depression, worse case we just give up everything we hanker after and appreciate life for what it is. -Mr Tay YZ
Posted by :]amu at 9:20 AM
September 29, 2006
owwies. my thumb.heh. smart okay liao dun act smart.
guessed i learnt it the hard way.
recess we had basketball 'appreciation'.
lols, meaning we watched the pple from h3-2 i tink..
dai heng, wei qiang, zhong hua all their class.
all is pro bballers sia.
they play so fast. barely can follow.
see i also malu.
then after school, played 'horse' with ben, alan, yuqi and amos.
i act-smart try self-ally from 2pt.
but i missed the rebound. ball whacked into my thumb.
hahas. amos alot of 'unique' styles, yuqi was juz simply 'rubbishly obscene' =P
abt 1hr we went home le.
now bandage my thumb area with some antiseptic.
i love the feeling ^^
and to those that gives a damn,
dun worry.
worst-case scenario i spiral into depression.
i wont die. ^^
jing jing kan shou zhe fen ai.
Posted by :]amu at 8:30 AM
ahhs. gone.our final week before e exams.
gotta clear my table, cleared the bulk todae.
the rest bring back on mon.
then tuesday it begins.
i'm gonna stop complaining about how i'm finished.
no. i will give it my best.
funny how i can answer the teachers qns in school.
at home my mind zones. not productive.
arghs.
CME got taken over by ms ng todae. 4 periods of maths.
the alternative was stoning for 2 periods, probably CME presentations.
so i guess it wasn't so bad.
after school, walking to bball court, passed her with her friend.
said hi. dunno whther she ignored me or what.
maybe due to the fact that i asked her whether she wanted to play.
but no reply, while ben behind just 'Hi!' at least like she took notice.
so i guess i was right, jon.
if thats that case.
least i tried, so i guess i gotta concentrate on revising for the last 3 days.
wish me luck.
i'm seriously gonna need it.
if i was invisible, least i can see you when your are happy.
Posted by :]amu at 1:18 AM
September 28, 2006
whees. last week almost gone.ss, geog, a maths, e maths, chem, bio, physics.
my combined humanaties have never been stellar.
bio. hais.
so i gotta score in the others, especially my languages..
i just CANNOT stand people who cant play bball and assume they can
size big pro lar? wtf man.
bball is not juz about bulk dumbass.
dunno how to play please keep off the court damnit.
seriously endangering players.
chem remedial.
periodic table. wasnt as tough as i expected. thankgawd.
my feelings seem to be on auto-pilot, ever-filling.
arghs. everytime it comes back to me.
everytime like the first.
jon told me to face it, stop putting it off.
but damn, how to?
it really irks me, but i lack the resolve, the guts.
some more at this time. T_T
but just wanna say i will be there for u if u need me.
i just wanna say
i've not let it go and it hurts.
frustrated. why is this happening to me!
Posted by :]amu at 4:18 AM
September 26, 2006
another day down.feeling kinda sad.
lagged behind so many in wp. T_T
not that i'm resenting them or anything.
heh. well. cant be bothered too much now.
exams coming soon.
damned.
played bball abt half an hour after school.
gotta do hmk, revise.
argh.
but hang in there.
juz 3weeks to liberation. ^_^
so until then,
give your best! =)
her smiles :)
Posted by :]amu at 1:44 AM
September 25, 2006
gawds. 1 week left.how? die liao lar.
revise also dunno wad i revising.
todae got back my chinese test results. passed.
but a scrape. T_T
that stupid passage always kill me de.
finally got my zangetsu keychain.
$7.20~! omg.
2 days of my allowance.
but i like it. =)
1st time blogging liddat.
going home soon. gotta do some studying then.
i cannot lose to so many pple in wordpower like the last test again.
its the only thing i can say i'm proud of.
hais, and pple say i'm hardworking.
i feel like juz heck all. burn my books if i'm extreme.
but thats just my 'phantasy'.
so until then.
i live,
in the harshness of reality.
i love my phantasy. a place where i'm king of my world. =)
Posted by :]amu at 4:31 AM
September 24, 2006
another week gone. a week and a day away from the exams. gotta study hard. hahas. see everyone around mugging, make me feel guilty >.< todae woke up ard 9am. breakfast and all those usual stuff. 11.45 left for tution. ard dhoby ghaut someone nearly got caught by the MRT door sia. lucky boy. physics. then go home. and 3-4hrs juz passed like that. heh. had pizza for dinner. yums! okay. gotta offline study T_T. my mum told me if i do well for the exams she might get me a new phone =) so perhaps i just might be able to fulfill one wish. lols. yes. with that phone and the holidays as my goals for this year. onward!!the vastness of the world make me feel insignificant. =S
Posted by :]amu at 5:03 AM
September 23, 2006
wahahas. good morning. lame. feeling quite awake at 12.45am. but i know i will knock off fast after my head touches the pillow. but reactions are scrw'd tho'. sucked at o2. i spent oh so much time reading people's blogs and surfing through friendster. man, i must be bored. wahahas. okay. the 'z' monster awaits. good nite/morning pple. =Pthe deepest slumber- to never be able to wake up.
Posted by :]amu at 9:53 AM
just had to blog this. anyone knows of "Digital Fortress" by Dan Brown? an amazing writer if u ask me. heh. in the final chapter of the book, there was this code that the main character used to sign off a note to his other half. a simple note, but loaded with meaning.
"Without wax"
i found it very nice. so here it is. Enjoy~
"Without wax"
i found it very nice. so here it is. Enjoy~
there. nice eh? hoped anyone who read this found it meaningful. thus, the knowledge available in books. hahas. a little something i hope people can enjoy during this 'chaos' of exams.
Posted by :]amu at 6:21 AM
September 22, 2006
blahhs. last week before the exams. damnations. what revision. everyday i juz pull one textbook out and read. do some exercises. memorise anything i can. done. revision. sucks~ having maths tution later. then abt 1 hr after that going for chem tution. bleahs.. at least it is not going to naught. last nite slept ard 11pm. then in the middle of the night my leg went numb. pain. then slept again. my air-conditioning was like cold. but i like it. ^^ woke up at 9. jammed for abit in the morning, then lunch. now blogging. arr.. sien. my table's a mess. gonna have to ask my tution teacher for help with set notations and all the whatnots. all those kuku symbols. u can even create sentences out of them, can u believe it. >.< ah damned. gotta go pack my table and get ready for tution. 0_oif i was invisible.
Posted by :]amu at 9:32 PM
September 20, 2006
Countdown: 14 days to EOYs.physics and ss todae. i'm so scrw'd with my ss. argh! sources all about the vietnam war. fail ding le. hais. gotta give it my best shot in the other subjects. physics i guess was kinda okay. hope can score well. yes. i made up my mind. the future is bright. no use living in the past. its bad psychologically, mentally. its like a block on me. but heck. i'm gonna throw the block as far as i can. liberation. concentrate on the exams. so many things after the exams waiting for me. wahahas. yes. the exams as my goal now. then the holidays. woohoo.
who knows what the future holds.
Posted by :]amu at 12:33 AM
September 19, 2006
Countdown: 15 days to EOYs.arrr.. tuesday. ss teacher never come. so no test for todae. but that means tml will have 3 tests.. physics, ss and mock english. hais.. just so like teachers to burden us with tests just RIGHT before the exams. >.<
dunno what to post. todae bball with ben they all.. my 3-pointer seems to have an attitude. sometimes duwan go in. otheriwse sometimes accurate. [its my ability =P]
school's as usual. mind-crushing. blahh
music can alter moods, can talk to you.
Posted by :]amu at 2:28 AM
September 18, 2006
Countdown: 16 days to EOYs.there. the countdown will be there whenever i update. 2 weeks left. whole week of tests to look forward too. whoopee. >.< well. mondays always make me damn lethargic. mondays is also the day where i spend most on food. becoz' of PE =P so conclusion. i hate mondays. so does garfield.
Garfield: I hereby declare Mondays no more! so today is a Tuesday.
hahas. if it was that simple. well.. she looks so downcast. T.T argh.
mondays is just not my day.
how long more must i live with this torment.
Posted by :]amu at 3:19 AM
September 16, 2006
argh. my thighs are aching like hell.. must be friday's mass pe. >.< but i enjoyed it. hahas. todae BB. kinda nice. during CE we were shwon this video about a guy named Nick, born wif no limbs but a little toe. and he can swim, use the computer and do many things that were supposed to be beyond him. and his strength comes from faith. kinda inspirational. then drill 2. i kept feeling that we were gonna fail. but heh. sir david said about 80% passed. and those that failed failed at inspection. at least i didnt give any wrong commands todae. hahas. oh well.. gotta chiong hmk tonite.. leaving soon for tution.should i just give up, and try to live up to the expectations.
i need someone to break the monotomy.
Posted by :]amu at 12:49 AM
September 15, 2006
well.. she blogged... what am i expecting.. that she will finally notice me? pity? i said i crave none, but do i really? i dunno... so, parts of a song i feel might be able to express what i feel. not exactly high on my fave. singers list but.. here it is.Hailie's Song- Eminem:
Some days I sit, starin'out the window
Watchin'this world pass me by
Sometimes I think theres nothin'to live for
I almost break down and cry
Somtimes I think I'm crazy
I'm crazy, oh so crazy
Why am I here, am I just wasting my time?
But then I see my baby
Suddenly I'm not crazy
It all makes sense when I look into her eyes
My insecurities could eat me alive
well. thats it. just venting a bit of my frustrations. over. time to move on with life. like concentrating on not screwing up the drill test tml. damn it. >.<
Posted by :]amu at 8:03 AM
well.. end of the 1st week of term4. and i spent 3 mornings feeling super gloomy.. must be i'm too noisy usually.. i just go silent for a while and everyone thinks that i'm not right. haha. ah okay.. about my week. super-loaded with loads of tests.. quite a bit of homework for the weekends. revision.. just got my class photo.. another treasured memory to add to my noticeboard. then todae got another project for CME... stupid waste of time if u ask me. some more this close to the exams. raagh. 2 weeks left.abstain from gaming. study. yes.
Posted by :]amu at 1:15 AM
September 11, 2006
first day of the last term. it doesent help with my mood with the teachers' constant reminders that we have 3 weeks left. argh... even if i dun look it, i'm starting to feel pressurised. this are the times where it would be REALLY nice if i had someone i can talk to... someone whom understands what we really go through. even those that say they once went through, may not know. every life is unique, because its all self-perception. how do we look at things. and i'm starting to feel not so sanguine. no. sure, i have people that know me for who i am without judging me. but it doesen't seem to be enough. its kinda sad... why have things turned our so badly..... sms-es, phone conversations.. all seem so long ago... i'm starting to feel tired.. i need someone to lean on... something unable to be expressed in words... pining for the sort of wholeness.. ah.. lets just hope this isn't my limit. though i'm a gamefreak.. there are times where i feel nothing interests me....these blasted pangs of growing up...
Posted by :]amu at 2:44 AM
September 10, 2006
alas. all good thing must come to an end. and so it has. end of the short reprive. thus far we have ventured, with the exams as goal before we bid 'sayonara' to 2006. the end-of-years look frighteningly closer from this time of the year. it seems like just yesterday when we celebrated Teachers' Day. Holidays are simply shorter school days as far as i'm concerned. even those free days cannot be properly enjoyed with the prospect of remedials the following day. ah, thats life. no two ways about it. yet not everyone seems to be feeling the tension. just perhaps a few hours ago, a friend asked me "what homework do we have". truth be told, i'm kinda envious of the way they take life so easy, although i am easy-going and perhaps a little 'bochap'. the final hours of the final day of our final break before the final exams. pheww.. how time flies. i guess mapling and jamming HAVE to be curbed. blahhs..Might be a little early, but gambate to all those mugging. soon i shall join the 'muggers' lol.
