November 10, 2006
i just spent the last one hour on o2jam.
playing songs alone. >.<
actually was mapling.
until i got killed by platoon chronos. sien.
then i surfed a few blogs.
it's true, when they say that whatever happens, no matter how grave, the world does not stop spinning.
when you are down, the world seems to be making a mockery of you.
i suddenly remembered a personality test, given to us by mdm sharifah during one CME lesson.
there was 4 types of personalities, everyone's a mix.
there were specific names, but i can't seem to rmb.
but it roughly is the happy people, the quiet ones, the phlegmatics and the domineering ones.
each question had 4 adjectives, pick the one most suited to yourself.
my highest point was in the happy part, quite close behind is the quiet one.
the phlegmatic and the domineering one had 4 marks each. about 1/5 of the scores in the other 2
and that in itself is weird.
the happy ones, sanguines i tink, were supposed to be the noisy ones.
the centre of attraction, loves attention and stuff.
while the quiet ones is the ones that generally keep to themselves.
the watchers, i think it was described that way.
my personality seems a great contradiction.
and when it translates onto my social life, i guess it ain't smooth-sailing.
you could say some good and some bad.
i mix well with people i'm familiar with. in their presences i tend to be loud and active.
but when it comes to an alien environment, my 'quiet personality' 'shines'.
i keep generally to myself, yearning to talk to someone.
but dunno wad to talk about. >.<
but once i manage to strike up a conversation, i 'revert back to sanguine'.
even so, the sanguine mood tends to 'overkill'. to the point where people get annoyed.
i guess i'm trying to work on it, like thinking about what i'm going to say.
making efforts to shut up sometimes.
and generally it fails quite badly.
not sure whether it affects my confidence.
i never had much luck with, say, public speaking.
what a mess. hahas.
nothing more to blog le. talk about deep thought. >.<
i guess here is where i can just talk with no reservations.
coz' i dun care who reads it.
if it amuses you, yay. if not, its your own problem.
so then. time to sleep...
give me the serenity to accept what i cannot change, courage to admit my mistakes and confidence to last another day.
Posted by :]amu at 11:30 PM
